Where Does Love Live?
Yesterday while waiting for cookies to bake I was staring out the window looking at the colored leaves and listening to the creek that runs through our property.
I began thinking of my college sweetheart, whom I married, loved with all my heart and left due to his addiction to alcohol. He passed away two years ago from the affect of his addiction. I never stopped loving him, as deeply when he died as the day I met him. I am just not as tolerant as some in the face of that disease and could not live with it.
Richard never truly understood the depth of my love for him. I doubt he ever even pondered the concept. But then, I am not sure that anyone ever does.
I still, after 31 years struggle with believeing my daughter loves me just because and wants to spend time with me.
My relationship with my own mother was riddled with mistrust, lies, and cruelty all in the disquise of love it is just hard for me to understand a healthy mother child relationship but apparently I am in one.
I read stories of grief over parental transition often and stare trying to find the words to help console but the understanding alludes me. I felt a twinge of sadness when my father passed but that was tied up in guilt of my own for not being present when he needed me to save him from my sister’s control which all but ruined all of us.
All of these forms of love consume each of us in one way or another throughout our lives, sometimes all at once. How we handle them is easier when we work through and in it with the help of our angels. They are always present with you, for you and around you. Asking for understanding can calm the soul, soothe the heart and quiet the mind. Take a moment to feel the love in your life. Is it unconditional? Can it be more forgiving? Does it feel good?
If it is not bringing your joy, go to YOUR angels for help and rest in their arms for a bit while they fill you up with their love and show you how best to share that.
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Many blessings, Jeanette